It Feels Like Home To Me

yesterday
last night
and early today,
i had a fever that kept rearing its ugly head.
asprin wouldnt break it,
so tylenol finally did.
it was one of those off and on fevers that sucks ASS.
so today Shurl & I went to swimming at the family's pool,
her nephew's dapple doxie puppy is SOOO adorable!!
i had MilkyWay on a boogie board in the pool!!
that was so frikkin CUTE!!
i want my next dog to be cool like that,
not a Napolean complexed little pussy who stays stuck up his other Mama's ass.
(even though i love my boy with EVERY fiber of my being,
i'm the ONLY one -beside Shurl & Linda- who can talk shit about him)
i cooked Bella supper tonight,
my famous chicken, wif buttahbeans, and 'taters au gratin.
yummy!
i was getting super excited when i saw the commercials for the new seasons of my favorite shows starting soon, in september.
then it dawned on me,
DAMNIT,
september is back.
i fucking HATE september.
Princess Diana died like August 31st,
My Nana died,
and Mother Theresa died.
September is a horrible month for me.
9 years.
holy hell.
where'd the time go?
my babies were like 2 or 3,
my sisters 11 and 5.
i doubt i'll ever get over the loss of Nana.
i just hope September will be easier to deal with in years to come, though.
i hope Nana would be proud of the path I'm on now.
i'm getting my life in order.
Wonderful Wife (okay maybe Nana didn't envision THAT for me, but happiness she did want for me),
Made amends with my real family,
Found myself,
Have loyal friends,
and I'm back in school.
maybe i should be further along by now,
but thats okay.
this, is my path.
and my path,
dark with pain, hurt, & anger behind me,
but bright, wonderful love aside me in every step of the way from now on.

If you knew how lonely
My life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how
I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done
It feels like home to me
It feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me
It feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong...
Well if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much...
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong.