anniversario felice, il mio amore

today is my 4 month anniversary with Cheryl
looking back
its amazing
the changes that have taken place within me
i had all but forgotten what it was like
to have someone be true to you
i hear an old ghost's words blow through my thoughts
"people and emotions are fragile, easy to break...
you must treat them with the same carefulness
as you treat a baby"
i see the anger
hatred
and ignorance
from my old life
in the people that once were
never have i claimed to be perfect
i'll be the first to admit i have flaws
but sometimes you just take a step back
and you gotta just say damn
no doubt karma
is both a saving grace
or a rightful demise
i used to be able to write words
to bring lovers to their knees,
the hardest of hearts to tears,
and the romantics to a higher level of illusionment
i wish i could tell you, Cheryl,
the true depth of my feelings for you,
how much you've impacted my life,
my heart,
my soul,
but words are merely words
i could whisper sweet nothings in your ears,
or tell you that i love you everyday all day
for a million years to come
i could be a copy cat
and copy and paste love song lyrics on here
that are dedicated to you
but that in itself is jaded and unorginal
definately not good enough to be graced by your time
one thing i know i can do and will do
is continue to show you my love for you
by remaining by your side
through all to come

Happy Anniversary, Bella.
I love you with ALL my heart, soul, body, mind, & spirit.

Blah Blah Blah

Life goes on in my utopia.
Met the new therapist today.
Very nice.
Reminds me of one of the chicks off L Word.
Can't decided if she's gay or str8.
Doesn't matter anyways.
The heat is unforgiving.
The haze over the Charleston skyline unreal.
Looks like something from another world.
Lifetime to show Golden Palace for a limited time.
Are Liz & I the only ones ecstatic about that?
Is that normal?
Ah, who cares?
We joined a gym under one membership.
They accept us as a couple.
How awesome is that, I ask?!
Its a purty cool gym,
I like it.
Steve's supposed to call me tomorrow
When he's in town.
That'll be neat.
Liz is coming Saturday.
Sunday is our BBQ at L & A's.
Not much to tell,
Life is good.

Everybody Deserves To Be Happy

guys are stupid.
i have a great friend
who has highly admirable qualities,
but a guy is making her feel like shyt.
i swear that is the PRECISE reason
i love women.
why should a great girl
have to degrade herself by
pretending to be less intellegent
and more needy?
the very qualities that terrify guys
and send them running back to their Momma's
are the same damn qualities that make women so beautiful.
strength, wit, courage, stamina, independence,...
i could list them (the qualities) for hours.
males truly are the weaker of the two sexes.
now i'm not saying that all males are stupid, evil, and Momma's boys
there are a few good men out there,
they are just far and few between.
no doubt my boys will be good men,
just like my dad, steve.
he taught me how to drive,
he was there on my prom night,
and he was at my graduation.
brad paisley said it best in his song,...
"Lookin' back all I can say, About all the things he did for me,
Is I hope I'm at least half the dad, That he didn't have to be"
i hope my bestest fwiend
finds somebody in this world who can appreciate her
and treat her the way she deserves.
i hope and pray that she can find somebody that can
makes her as happy as i am with cheryl.
everybody deserves that.

Lightning Speed Of The Rat Race...

i stayed up waaaay too late last night,
watched waaaay too much TV.
the politicians and sales guys
started to metamorphisize
into harry potter characters.
this world is becoming
contaminated by absurdity
at an alarming unforgiving break neck speed.
as for me,
i am completely content
living and enjoying
the delectful taste of
the slow southern life.
all these idiotic, robotic people
going faster than lance armstrong
in this rat race,
where are they going?
but yall know what,
thats not for me to worry
my pretty lil head over.
all stupid people,
that is what they are.
and to those of you who know me,
know that i have a serious allergy to them.

Harry, Charlie, & Sexy Spikes

been spending a lot of quiet time with my girl
she got me the new harry potter book
i've already finished it
OMFG!!
the next book shall be of EXTREME interest
we went on a date to see charlie & the chocolate factory
pot heads congregate, this is the movie for you!!
a few scenes were hilariously disturbing,
though the only ones in the theatre laughing
were my girl, two LITTLE kids, and myself
hmmm...
is there something wrong with that picture?
me thinks no;
'tis nothing more than the young at heart
having an innocent time
we pampered ourselves to a haircut and eyebrow waxes
i got layers,
she got more butchy
(oh, * Ahem * btw, baby it isn't too butchy, its still femme...a lil bit....)
i like the spikey haired look on my baby
she's so perfectly awesome!
the only other one to pull off
the spikey look just as delicious
would be the ONE & ONLY
rosie o'donnell


heard something painfully truthful, yet grudgingly funny on one of my favorite shows, Rescue Me, on FX
" Yes; I am prejudice seeing a $2000 dollar car with an $8000 paint job packed with six Spics smoking weed. " - Tommy, in Sensitivity Training Classes

An Ass Shakin Roach, Gettin Tipsy, Christening The New Bridge, Folly Pier, & Mastering The 5 Speed

okay so i have A LOT to update yall on...
for starters...
i truly think i'm losing my mind.
cheryl was working friday night
i was at home
nothing out of the ordinary, right?
WELL,
a cock roach appeared in our room
(ew!! fukking NASTY)
this lil bastard gets ON THE CEILING
RIGHT ABOVE THE BED
i'm scared to take the broom to it
for fear of knocking him off onto the bed
i'm on the phone with cheryl
at the time (2:30 a.m.)
she convinces me to get the broom, right?
well that didn't work
the lil fukker SHOOK HIS ASS AT ME
HE SHOOK HIS ASS AT ME
the GD fukker TAUNTED me, yall
theys just some things in this here world that jus' aint right
an' thas one of 'em
so anyways, cheryl took off of work for 30 minutes
to come home to kill it
because i started flipping out an went into the starts of a panick attack
oh yea and i broke the lamp while trying to kill him too

NEXT STORY:
cheryl and i go to a wedding reception saturday night
on one of the local plantations here in Charleston
its her cousin that got hitched
i drank like 3 or 4 sips from champagne
and 3 or 4 sips from an EXTREMELY southern drink called Mimosa
yea my ass got tipsy
so here i am tipsy, in some rough humidity,
and surrounded by members of Cheryl's family that i've never met
apparently blue eyes aren't the only thing that run in the family, LoL
we left there and drove over the new Charleston bridges TWICE
omg its breath taking yall!
we drove over it on openin' night, how cool is that?!
we then drove around c-ton with our windows down,
listening to the radio,
and taking us where fate took us.
fate took us to folly beach
we parked the car, then walked on the beach to the pier,
where we made out in the moonlight underneath the pier.
now i ask you,
gay or straight,
how friggin romantic is that?!

NEXT STORY:
sunday afternoon (yesterday)
we went to cheryl's parents in orangeburg
we ate lunch
then took off in the car so cheryl could teach me
how to drive a 5 speed
i did well, yall!!
i tell yall what,
i suprise even myself, sometimes!!
i even did it with my future Mom-In-Law in the car with us
* WooT WooT *
then, let's see....
hmmm....
we went on a fire deptartment scene call
though we got stuck on the interstate
it was rough,
it was an entrapment call
2 helicopters and 1 bus (ambulance)
LoL, i almost have Cheryl convinced if we move back to O-burg
we BOTH hafta join the fire dept.

Life is GREAT, AIN'T IT, YALL?!

Karma, Anger Mangement, and Fireworks

today we got her,
Karma.
thats what we named her anyways.
an '03 Civic, fully loaded.
and what a beauty is she!!
i already put my stickers on her and everything
my Tink sticker (of course, duh!),
my hula girl SC sticker,
and my blue fairy that says "i've been fairy good".
its hot,
i tell you.
of course with it bein a 5 speed,
adjustments will be done to accommodate me.
my girl is SOOOO hot driving it, too.
she gets a lil extra " pep " in her,
she's just so garsh darn delectable!!
she gets a little bit more fiesty
when driving a stick shift,
i tell yall...
she is just damnit adorable!!
we originally wanted the lime green bug
i fell in love with it.
i truly believe if that sales man
had not been a dickhead
we would've gotten it.
how * super cute * would that've been?!
anyways today at the dealership
i had an outburst of anger.
i know i have problems with my anger,
and because i REFUSE to be like RICHARD,
it will be corrected and handled appropriately.
this sale general manager
was a mother fukkin dick i tell yall,
he had the gd nerve to talk to MY girlfriend
like she was a damn dumbass.
well that pissed me off right there.
BUT
BUT
BUT,...
the S.O.B. looked JUST like
Fat Bastard, Billy.
the more i stared into the fukker's face,
the more enraged and irate i became.
i unloaded on him, no doubt.
but what scared me,
was that the anger i felt,
though misdirected,
went straight to my core.
the words i said to him
to me
weren't strong enough,
hateful enough,
or ugly enough.
i wanted to cause him temporary bodily harm,
not that i ever actually would cause i'm too big of a pussy.
that is how MUCH aggression
i had towards this faggot ass wanna-be
that i never met before in my life,
simply because he looked like Fat Bastard.
* sigh *
yeah, talk about a few therapy sessions on THAT.
but movin on,
we were informed of a house and property
for sale on Johns Island.
we are looking into the possibility of buying it.
i dunno that it'll even be possible,
so we are going to see what we can do.
the fireworks in charleston were tonight
to commemorate the new bridge opening.
i stayed home and watched them on tv
cause cheryl was at work.
they were GREAT!
that blows
but hey,
life is great!
my boys are getting worn out at camp,
they're having a blast,
mom says.
mawmaw said it was okay if cheryl and i go back to florence
to spend the night or two at her house in early august.
planning on bringing pixie back with us,
to get her fixed.
i love my life,
i swear i do.
i have the best family,
the best friends,
and an amazingly awesome partner.
thank you,
to yall up there up above in the heavens lookin down.
i know i am truly Blessed,
for that,
i am forever grateful.
its the gods and goddesses
to who i have mucho gratitude for.

I Dropped My Shit...

so
we went to florence
dropped off Shithead
spent time with everybody i love;
Mawmaw, Wisabus, Momma Linda...
Woohoo
That was fun
heh
Although my Papa
prolly ain't too happy with me
* AHEM *
transferred my case to Charleston
thank gawd
came back home via orangeburg
went to test drive cars today
we drove an 03 lime green bug
it was AWESOME
and drove one or two other cars
we saw a camper explode on the interstate on the way to orangeburg
that was kinda cool
anyways
my food's ready.
peace luv 'n chicken

And So The Fairytale Goes On...

not much to report on
cannot wait
to go home
to my g-ma's with my woman
harley will be dumped out
asap after crossing
the Flo County line
he is back to full force
with a vengence
didn't see the yorkies
spent all day snuggled up to her
i couldn't have asked for a better life

Amor Vincit Omnia

I am Blessed.

Thank You
to the Powers That Be.

I have great
Friends,
Family,
and Partner.

Amor Vincit Omnia.

Oops!!

tuesday we went to river front park
to take Harley
he's such a pussy;
scared of the water
'squiters carried us away
they are the unofficial state bird
wednesday we went to see L & A
they got a new chi-wow-wow
cutest one i ever seen
ever
i fell in love with the pup
as if that wasn't inevitable
more chi-wow-wow's are coming
i'll prolly want another dog i can't have
i have issues, LoL
i never realized how much i loved dogs
until i wasn't around them
we're meeting up with them saturday
to go see the show yorkies
we came home
and
um...
anyways,
in the excitement of things...
btw, on a side note-
camera phones are GREAT
anyways like i was saying
the head board of the bed broke
so...
at 2 a.m.
we tore down the bed frame
and carried it to the trash
so as of the other day
hurricane cindy
has been downgraded
to a tropical storm
hmmm...
right.
okay.
my mind is just wandering
i awoke today feeling like shit
i think i am getting sick
been glued to the
britney & kevin show
she's seemingly
just a normal girl
and southern, to boot
i'mma head off of here
an crash on the couch
peace, luv, 'n chicken yall

Fairytales DO Come True!!

okay so we went to beaufort
to diana's friend's party
it was great
the ride through the lowcountry
was sultry and as southern as it gets
i could definately be a low country girl
we sat on the swingset that over looked the broad river marshes
we could see three sets of fireworks
the food
alcohol
obnoxious drunks
good ol' southern people
were all in abundance
i knew i belonged right there at that precise moment
there was NO WHERE else i'd rather have been
sitting there in the swing
snuggled up to my girl
watching the july 4th fireworks
was simply put
amazing
something right out
of a southern fairytale

A Daddy sitting with his little girl, its a sweet picture, isn't it?! 

This be's the swing where Cheryl and I sat to watch the fireworks...Paris Island, Hilton Head, AND the rest of the fireworks!! 

Me ON the dock...Notice the shirt, LoL!! I look like shyt though, but we'd been outside for hours..gimee a break, I can't look perfect 24/7!! 

The dock on the marsh, the sunlight kinda blurs the pic 

Diana and Me on the boat...She's a crazy one, but she's GREAT- even for a Yankee!! 

Cheryl chillin by the marshes of the river at the party 

Diana and Cheryl on the boat 

Til I Said It To You

Til I Said It To You

By: Reba

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Love is a powerful word

A little word that oughta mean something

Love better mean what it says

Say what you mean or it doesn't mean nothing

Love is a dangerous door to open

If you don't feel it when it's spoken

Sometimes I said it when I really didn't mean it

Just to throw away a promise

I knew wasn't true

It meant a little less to me everytime I did it

But I never said I love you from the heart

Til I said it to you

You made me tell you the truth

And that truth was a total revelation

I see I have it in me

Now I can speak without any hesitation

I love you comes so freely

For the first time I believe me

Sometimes I said it when I really didn't mean it

Just to throw away a promise I knew wasn't true

It meant a little less to me everytime I did it

But I never said I love you from the heart

Til I said it to you

Sometimes I said it when I really didn't mean it

Just to throw away a promise I knew wasn't true

It meant a little less to me everytime I did it

But I never said I love you from the heart

Til I said it to you

---------------------------------

I love you, Bella.

Thank you for being you.

I now know what love truly means.

You have ALL of my heart

And you are deep within my soul.

It is you, my Beloved,

Who is the beautiful one.

I eagerly look forward to sharing our lives together.

* MuAh *

God Bless America

today i was a good wifey
cleaned house
folded laundry
packed my baby's supper
she had to work tonight
over time
tomorrow we head to beaufort
to celebrate the 4th
happy birthday, america
harley's back to normal now
mama linda had an incident
at her house
with a storm that passed through Flotown
the fairies got broke
(ha ha, but this fairy's still kickin
so ,.l.. )
grandma says its okay
that cheryl and i stay
at her house on the 11th
i'm takin muh girl home
for the night
* woohoo *
screw you mom c and pote
boogie man bothered me outside tonight
i was smoking
damnit
i didn't get to finish muh cig
stupid natives
are shooting fireworks in a lightning storm
stupid idiots
god bless america, right?

Ain't Life Grande?!

so i heard from jack
last night
she's goin to folly
might call me when she's there
i hope i get to see her
she and i weren't ever that close
but to me
she is my sister
she's a stronger woman than me
to put up with him for so long
i get the feeling
she doesn't like me sometimes
a year or two ago
she asked me
why i hated her
and i honestly didn't know
i hope his wrath won't affect her
the way it has me
she's a good girl
luv ya, jack.

went shopping today
at belk
hit the red dot sale
got some great t-shirts
1 with the pink bunny
covering his ears
and it says * not listening *
another shirt with hazardous waste signs
saying
* APPROACH WITH CAUTION:
MAY CONTAIN DANGEROUS GASSES*
lmfao!!
how great is that?!
wisabus would appreciate that one
the 3rd one says
* THE FORCE IS STRONG IN THIS ONE *
dorky
i know
but its great
(na na nuh boo boo, ash)

my woman cooked us some
fried skrimp for supper
yummy
the 4th we are headed to beaufort
me thinks
to see her friend
and party

not much going on
two happy dykes
quietly living a mundane life
its great!
how GREAT it is to NOT be surrounded
by false stupid people
who thrive on drama
like i once saw
on a bumper sticker:
save da drama for ya mama!

i posted the harley pics
hope yall enjoy

Yours Truly 

An Angel, A Drunken Bat Boy, and Gettin 'Er Dun!!

a comforting visitor loved me again in my dreams.
a voice unwillingly forgotten,
called my name.
love blanketed my whole essence...
i was safe,
truly loved, and wanted.
her cheeks,
still carried a rouge
one shade too dark
for her milky white complexion.
the twinkle in her eyes was there,
her glow still in tact.
but then again,
she is my Angel
when she was here on Earth and still though she's in the Heavens above.
many seasons have come and gone since her departure.
i fought to selfishly still have her in my dreams.
it wasn't until i let go completely
did she hold me and tell me she loves me unconditionally.
i love you too, my Nana.

Harley went to be de-nutted today.
he shit in the middle of the petsmart store
how horrifying!!
when he came home
he looked like a drunk bat boy.
i'll post the pictures of him with the collar
as soon as Cingular has fixed the outage problem for SC

i took charge today
(like i have been doing recently,
in my Femme to Butch metamorphisis,
* AHEM * if ya catch muh drift)
went power speed grocery shopping
45 minutes!!
hey you do that in Charleston
minutes before the 5 o'clock (somewhere, LoL, love ya Mama Linda) traffic
then i took charge with the Cingular TS on the phone tonight
cheryl says she likes this side of me,
yes sir-ee bob!!
GIT- ER- DUN!!!