nc vavation pics.

NC Vacation Pics



we had a BLAST!!
we're home,
with our babies,
safe & sound.
all is well.

amen, sista.

State Of Grace

Grace works down at Wal-Mart
For thirteen years she's punched that clock
Been ten weeks without a day off
She never gave it too much thought
Til one morning in the mirror
Two new lines opened her eyes
And suddenly it hit her
She still had the wings to fly
Attention late night shoppers
A two for one on broken chains
That's the state of grace
It's the weak made strong
It's finding what you're missing
Was right there all along
It's an open road to a better place
It's a life worth living
In the state of grace
Grace cleaned out her bank account
Bought a beat up camper truck
Turned her pink slip into personnel
Then tore her time card up'
As she drove away she wondered
What New York City'd be like
And would the stars really keep you up
On a clear desert night
With a front seat full of road maps
To help her lose her way
That's the state of grace
It's the weak made strong
It's finding what you're missing
Was right there all along
It's an open road to a better place
It's a life worth living
In the state of grace
Grace knew when she looked up
There wouldn't be a sky
If the dreams we've been given
Weren't supposed to fly
It's an open road to a better place
It's a life worth living
In the state of grace
It's a life worth living
In the state of grace

bah.

okay so tomorrow mornining,
bright eyed and bushy tailed,
cheryl & i will made headway to our NC beach house.
yes, i am excited.
maybe the ocean air will clense away this headache of mine that refuses to go away.
i don't know why it won't.
its not like a normal sinus headache,
so i dunno wtf it is.
tammy faye's gone,
harry potter lives,
and ...
well thats about it bc i really dont have anything else to say.
sorry to disapoint.
peace out, fart lickers.

the goings and comings.

So, my hand hurts.
And, I am sleepy.
I went home again.
It was great!
I was s’posed to return to Oburg Monday,
but returned Tuesday instead.
While home,
I had a FABULOUS time seeing my friends.
Truly amazing, it was.
I had two reasons for staying an extra night.
I’m hoping one of those reasons will turn out okay.
Being home…
again…
returning to old stomping grounds,
unleashed a wave of unpleasant memories of the girl I once was.
As crazy as I was back then,
I knew I couldn’t survive in that town.
I’d have to fight tooth & nail to find my way out.
and, I did.
Thank goodness.
I almost have everything I’ve ever wanted,
everything I’ve ever dreamt of.
The rest will come in its own time & space.
Reminders,
everywhere.
There’s nothing like going home,
and nothing sweeter than coming home.
Being home sheds the outer layers and reveals my core.
The fresh air felt good.
Now I’ll work on keeping that just the same.
its hard figuring out how to do that.
applying one algorhithm to a different problem…
causes for some adjustments to have the same solution.
aggravating,
but worthwhile.
Getting down to basics,
to what drives me,
what makes me happy,
what fulfills me…
again, I say…
There’s nothing like going home,
and nothing sweeter than coming home.

you're like comin home.

Riding restless under a broken sky
A weary traveler something missing inside
Always looking, for a reason to turn around
Desperate for a little peace of mind
Just a little piece of what I left behind
Well I've found it now
You're like comin' home
You're like a Sunday morning
Pleasing my eyes
You're a midsummer's dream
Under a star soaked sky
That peaceful easy feelin'
At the end of a long long road
You're like comin' home
You're like comin' home
Go ahead and let your hair fall down
This wanderlust, it's gone now
Here in your arms I'm safe from the world again
These are the days they can't be erased
Baby there isn't a better place
You're like heaven
You're like comin' home
You're like a Sunday morning
Pleasing my eyes
You're a midsummer's dream
Under a star soaked sky
That peaceful easy feelin'
At the end of a long long road
You're like comin' home
You're like comin' home
You're that innocence
That serenity
That long lost part of me

our (my) new baby.

celebrating the 4th in florence.

well i hope that others had a fun & safe 4th like i did!
my trip home was what i needed.
old friends somehow soothe the soul.
Ashley & Derrick are so awesome,
i quadroople love them!
i LOVED talking to ashley one on one.
it was awesome to compare stories.
Mikey,
well,
he's still Mikey.
LoL!
the fireworks in hartsville...
i didn't know that many people even KNEW WHERE hville was!!
goodness gracious!!
EVERYBODY & DEY MAMA WAS THERE!!
the memories of hartsville...
the good,
the bad,
and the ugly....
i missed Mikki & Michelle.
my, those girls have grown up so!!
and Matt!!
he's such a great friend.
Jackson ate my family up.
they,
of course,
ate him up with a spoon.
i absolutely LOVED being home,
but i missed my Bella and was glad to see her when she came to get me.
Tomorrow the G.I. Dr gets to do a bit of invasive pokey-pokey.
Then I get to drink some nasty stuff for another test of his.
yuck.
i just hope relief will be in sight soon there after.
*please*

the music goddesses have smiled upon us.

it doesn't get ANY better than this!!



Kelly Clarkson recently fired her manager and she's just replaced him with Reba McEntire's current manager and husband.


oh jesus who art in heaven, and all that other nonsense christian bullshit...a miracle has bestowed upon us. the pope would be proud.

happy birthday, princess diana.

so i watched the last half of the princess diana concert.
i, like the rest of the estimated 5 million people watching, i'm sure,
eagerly awaited elton to perform "candle in the wind", the princess diana version.
man,
that queer sho know how to make my dick go limp.
blue balls for nothin!!
the p diddy song brought tears to my eyes.
i know * shock *
if the princess' birthday is today
and they held this concert in her memory to honor her
because its been ten years,
that means that my Nana has been gone ten years.
that seems like a blatant lie.
september is approaching.
fast.
* sigh *
i MUST say that the recent CMT Crossroads
starring Reba & Kelly.
omg.
fucking awesome.
no other adjectives can describe it.
i reccommend TiVo-ing it.
(i'd say go to CMT.com to see it,
but them hoes didn't put any of their actual singing on there.)
so.
whatever.
pms,
illnesses,
and tension
have ordered up a plateful of reminders for me:
self control,
patience,
awareness of all (including and especially others),
boundries,
respect,
and dedication were all bittersweet going down my throat.
but they were my medication to knowing how remedy and solve the situation(s).
included are two song lyrics.
happy birthday princess diana.
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Candle In The Wind (Princess Diana Tribute)
Elton John

Goodbye England's rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart
You called out to our country
And you whispered to those in pain
Now you belong to heaven

And the stars spell out your name
And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will

Loveliness we've lost
These empty days without your smile
This torch we'll always carry
For our nation's golden child
And even though we try
The truth brings us to tears
All our words cannot express
The joy you brought us through the years

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will

Goodbye England's rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart
Goodbye England's rose
From a country lost without your soul
Who'll miss the wings of your compassion
More than you'll ever know

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And you footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will
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Because Of You
Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of youI don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you