Flying

"Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The trouble-makers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status-quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify, or vilify them. But the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do." --Apple Computers
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so today has been a lazy day
gave my mutt a bath
had a lil bonfire for the things
we couldn't throw away
last night cheryl's mom & sister came over
we all sat on our back porch
smoking, drinking, and talking
it was great
it felt real
i think i value that feeling, " realness ",
now more than ever
because before
my world and all that was in it
seemed like i was watching a movie
a movie i couldn't control
where i had no say so
and now
now its all real
i'm controlling the shots
my emotions
my actions
my words
life isn't so hard as i thought it once was
you can fall into the deepest
darkest
scariest
most horrible abyss
hit rock bottom
bust your ass
bruise your ego
have your heart and soul shattered into billions of pieces
but there is a way out
by having faith
hope
and courage
you'll soon see yourself flying right out of that hole
and back into reality
your world
your life
is what you make it
now i have what i want
i have a wonderful wifey-to-be
wonderful family
wonderful in-laws-to-be
wonderful (yet psychotic) dog
wonderful and LOYAL friends
a wonderful, quaint little house in the country
and i like it that way
i have come a long ways from where i was when i was so damn self destructive
my life
my love
me
are all where its meant to be
although i've got my battle scars and old wounds
i have healed up just fine
it feels great
" to ride the wind's back... "
once again