basking in the purple.

alas,
i have mostly recovered
from accidently viewing the picture of the pre-embalmed body of anna nicole smith.
it fucked with me.
i strongly recommend others to not look at this immense invasion of privacy.
i thought it was a gag site.
it was --
just not the gag i thought.
anywho,
oh i had fun this weekend!!
burps and farts in abundance.
yesth.
i must write the last two papers this week.
spring cleaning begins.
puppy proofing,
and party cleansing of the home.
yes. i cannot wait.
i love it.
absolutely love it.
no drama,
no bullshit,
a peaceful balance...
my life is better than i ever thought it could be.
i still have my days where i awake on the wrong side of the bed.
i still have those days where everything that can go wrong, does go wrong.
cheryl and i still have the rare disagreement.
to deny those happen is just plain foolishly dishonest.
i had to THINK about what i wanted for my bday,
which has NEVER happened to me before.

i have everything i want for the first time, ever.
i finally concluded that my ass aint a size 4 anymore,
so i need clothes.
all i need are clothes.
how's about that?
i need,
not want,
and i have everything i ever dreamt of.