happy birthday, princess diana.

so i watched the last half of the princess diana concert.
i, like the rest of the estimated 5 million people watching, i'm sure,
eagerly awaited elton to perform "candle in the wind", the princess diana version.
man,
that queer sho know how to make my dick go limp.
blue balls for nothin!!
the p diddy song brought tears to my eyes.
i know * shock *
if the princess' birthday is today
and they held this concert in her memory to honor her
because its been ten years,
that means that my Nana has been gone ten years.
that seems like a blatant lie.
september is approaching.
fast.
* sigh *
i MUST say that the recent CMT Crossroads
starring Reba & Kelly.
omg.
fucking awesome.
no other adjectives can describe it.
i reccommend TiVo-ing it.
(i'd say go to CMT.com to see it,
but them hoes didn't put any of their actual singing on there.)
so.
whatever.
pms,
illnesses,
and tension
have ordered up a plateful of reminders for me:
self control,
patience,
awareness of all (including and especially others),
boundries,
respect,
and dedication were all bittersweet going down my throat.
but they were my medication to knowing how remedy and solve the situation(s).
included are two song lyrics.
happy birthday princess diana.
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Candle In The Wind (Princess Diana Tribute)
Elton John

Goodbye England's rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart
You called out to our country
And you whispered to those in pain
Now you belong to heaven

And the stars spell out your name
And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will

Loveliness we've lost
These empty days without your smile
This torch we'll always carry
For our nation's golden child
And even though we try
The truth brings us to tears
All our words cannot express
The joy you brought us through the years

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will

Goodbye England's rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart
Goodbye England's rose
From a country lost without your soul
Who'll miss the wings of your compassion
More than you'll ever know

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in
And you footsteps will always fall you
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend never will
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Because Of You
Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of youI don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you