RIP, Chloe Caulkins, '99-'06

cheryl woke me today with the news of Chloe's death.
one of my boys left a message on my machine that would make even the most cold hearted one cry.
mom took her to the vet thurs.
vet had to give her a supository for nausia.
two back to back insulin shots for her diabetes.
(we didnt know she had it.)
and recommended mom put her down.
mom, doing THE most kind hearted thing i've EVER seen her do,
said that it was not her decision.
the dog she hated was the family dog,
so it was the family's decision.
(mom didnt hate her. she only said that when Chloe peed everywhere & even then it wasnt Chloe's fault, it was the cushings.)
they brought her home.
the boys were in bed by 9:15,
mom, steve, & Chloe in bed by 9:30.
they began talking to Chloe when she began breathing really hard.
after a few intermitten gasps for air,
Chloe left us by 10.
she was 7.
though they say 8.
she had this little bouncy ball she loved.
she'd be OCDish about keeping it IN her food bowl.
LoL.
i can't believe i'm crying this much.
she was SOOOO small when we got her.
I picked her out after BEGGING my Mom for a WHOLE summer for a dog.
we got her the day before my senior year started.
i took her to liz's new house to show her to her & her family.
Chloe politely peed on their brand new carpet.
i'm gonna miss her.
i've been upset all day.
the kids, made a tombstone
and had a memorial service today for her.
i wish i coulda been there.
but i know, she's chasing all the mailmen she wants to now.
and even barking,...
a real bark.

goodbye Chloe... i love you.